Secret Garden: a huge mess

Didn't post anything lately.. I miss blogging.

My laptop a3takom 3omro.. I had to format it because of many viruses and spyware that hit it from nowhere.. some data was lost. I had tough days..

But this isn't the issue.. because I'm having tough days lately, because of everything..

My life is a mess..

I hate to admit it.

and here's the full picture:

I have issues with my family

Can't keep up with my best friends.. I don't call much, late replies to their calls or msgs.. even e-mails.. and therefore being less supportive for them.

I work at 4 places.. one is good, another one is bearable and the other two just me feel frustrated, sick of the world, and useless..

I can't keep up with my plans either at work nor my social life.

I have issues with my faith .. I'm not like before.. I pray and don't actually pray .. I miss my close relationship with God. and I think this is the key issue for all my trouble..

I waste a lot of my time in useless stuff.

I waste my efforts..

A HUGE MESS!!!!!

The only good thing in my life now is having my fiancé around me.. he's just amazing.. I feel so much love in the air because of our good relationship.

and this is killing me..

I'm supposed to have everything and to be enjoying it!

I'm a good person from so many aspects.. I know I have many capabilities and the well to become better ..

I'm living a good life in general.. Alhamdullah good health and wealth .. I'm educated , with a supportive family , a great man in my life..

I just don't seem to be able to organize my life lately.

and I can't ignore it anymore.

I must do something about it!

I must..